our love on 2003-10-21

It might be too soon to say it. And I don't even know if I've got the right to ever say it. But its like this song in my head and I can't help it.

Our love.

Jules says I'm thinking of a Rhett Miller song. When did I ever listen to it? And who in the hell is Rhett Miller?

She explained that too and then I found out that Parker liked that band, Old 97s. He's their front man.

"Really?" It ain't easy being friends with a lover. Especially, when she mentions old flames, and you wonder if the fire is really going as fast as you can sense it.

"I love you." She told me last night.

Woo...now that woke me up. And its not like in passing, or over the phone or when you say goodbye, but here and now sealed with a kiss.

I didn't know if I was going to cry or laugh my socks off.

Yeah, I know. I'm strange. And maybe missing something normal in my life. Don't ever remember Mom saying it. Can't say Dad ever said it.

But yeah, the night, it was ours and I wish we were back there, laying in the grass together, feeling the darkness around us and me saying it back, "I love you, too."

I hope she knows I mean it.