the joy of your company on 2007-02-27

Its supposed to get bad again. Ice. Freezing rain. Something like that. Steph told me all about it. She has to drive out of town tomorrow with a friend down to Lincoln and isn't to happy about that.

Tonight, I saw this couple. They laughed at each other little comments about books and movies. They must have stayed over an hour looking at everything in the library. The way he'd smile at her. The way she'd smile at him. Love. Love of each other's company. They didn't even have to touch each other.

Kind of gave me a tickle in the throat. Made me wonder if I could enjoy Becca's company without kissing her.

She hugs too much. Its not that I mind, but I don't know. I just hope this isn't like going from the fire into the frying pan kind of thing.

I mean, suddenly, we're dating. She wants me to take her places, and she wants to cook for me. Which is really strange, because Becca doesn't cook.

But now she wants to make dinners from recipes off boxes of mac n' cheese and bake cherry cobbler with Pillsbury sugar cookie dough.

She loves messing up the kitchen at my place. What if she moves in and I don't even have a chance to say, "Wait a minute..."

Its not like I don't think about Maybe. I am not over her. Exactly. Although, the whole situation was shitty from the beginning.

She went through cycles. I want you. I don't want you. And I swear that girl could makeout with anybody. She's crazy. But then Becca's got her problems too.

I think it had a lot to do with the guys from her past. Possibly. You know, guys who party all the time and tear up stuff. I don't know, I'd hear things. You know, shoplifting. Stealing stuff from her friends.

I heard this one story from a friend, ages ago, that Becca stole her bra. Its kind of funny when I think about that now. I haven't told her that I know this. I'm not because she's different now.

Its this idea how she used to date two guys at once. Like I need that.

But that was high school.