holding back forging on on 2007-03-09

I wish I made more money. Especially..when...

God, I get so depressed thinking about it. Its just not fair.

I don't know how Parker does it. I always thought he was this lazy jerk. But now I feel like the lazy jerk.

Kate says he gets off Sundays and one day off every two weeks. He finally got on at the post office. He's really trying to save up for a house.

And now when I start to think how in the hell am I ever going to be able to support anyone, little alone, me, I get scared.

Shit, this can keep you up at night. Then gas is going up again. At this rate I'll be walking or taking my bike to work. Actually, I'm closer than I've ever been to work. But I should seriously think about taking a second job.

I was listening on talk radio this morning how some celebrity said a relationship should be one where you can keep progressing in life. Thats a lot to think about. I mean, you don't want someone holding you back.

I have to say, I thought that about Becca. But I'm starting to think its me who's holding myself back.