are you shit'n me? on 2007-03-16

I'm not trying to react over this crap Maybe has pulled. I just can't.

I mean, I worry enough as it is wondering if I'll ever be a good enough provider for even Becca. And this. This. This is just crazy shit.

I don't believe her. I think she's trying to get back at me. And even if she were pregnant, it probably wouldn't even be mine. And even then if it was she would have aborded it without even my consideration. She hates kids.

She was always like getting in to Ft. Knox anyway, you know. And that was one thing from the beginning, this would not happen.

And she's been on the pill like forever. It just doesn't quite jive.

I mean, I've played this game before. Just not with her. And yeah, that might have been my fault. I was a little drunk when that happened with somebody I'd just met. Which was a while a go. And yeah, it scared me. It scared me shitless.

Cause, I didn't really know that person all that well. But I accepted the fact if it happened I'd be there for her. Needless to say, it didn't happen. False alarm. And well, we're practically strangers now.

But this. I don't really know if I could be there for Maybe.