a bookshelf sinks into the sand
& a language learned & forgot,
in turn, is studied once again
it's a shocking bit of footage
viewed from a shitty TV screen

notes

the bad boyfriend on 2007-09-18

Rain today. Hey, I'm not sluggish..which is what I was fighting all last week.

I swear I was good for nothing for the most part. Not even for Becca.

But she babied me. Why, I don't know.

I've heard her on the phone with her Mom, her friend..saying stuff like, "I'm not sure he even likes me, sometimes?"

Can you imagine? She said that?

I still just shake my head.

I mean, seriously, you can't be on..all the time. You just can't. I love her. And...sure, I want to make her happy, but sometimes..I'm just to tired to think about it.

I'm not sure why this is worrying me now.

i'm not that guy